Would someone please be willing to read my story and help me? :/?

your anxiety seems to be from the lack of drinking, it will pass with time. Also, don't assume your friends are perfect, they just kow how to hide there issues. Talking with a doctor will only help, just take your time explaining how you feel. Your not a freak and with work, confidence is easy to achieve and envy will only make the anxiety worse. Talk about it with your friends and a doctor, you will feel better but only if your willing to work for it.